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.Thursday, June 28, 2007 ' 20:30 ★
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sorry for not updating the past few days.
wasn't at home since sunday night.
overnight at cik salmah house from sunday night till just now. as some of you knew, my grandma ( maternal side ) passed away last monday morning at 10.30am. Innalillah. it was all of sudden actually. we didn't expect it to happen at that time. it's like i don't know. it was this situation when most of them are getting ready to go to the hospital since the doctor told us to do so because he say bout nenek's paru2 like the last time. and while me sitting in front of nenek browsing thru the doctor's prescription and cik sani baca doa2 while holding nenek hands. then all of sudden, cik sani calls nenek but she didn't quite responds and all the aunties that was there started to crowd around nenek and hugged each other and cried. and thats the moment nenek took her last breathe. i cried. all of us was panicked. called every single people that i knew. especially few of the aunties that wasn't there. i couldn't really tell them that nenek was gone. hearing their reactions via the phone. was like....
i couldn't continue. just couldn't.
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when i was born to this world.
i got 2 nenek & 1 datuk.
(1 datuk frm dad side passed away before i was born).
3 loving & caring people that is.
a decade ago,
atuk Sa'aban left me when i still need the love and the care from a grandfather.
last year,
nek kiyah left me.
and NOW,
nek Alimah left me too.
haizzz.. realising that i have no more grandparents now makes me real sad. no more "hi nek! hi tuk!" for me to say. i know there are still many elderly out there that i can call either that. but for sure, it wouldn't be the same like calling my own.
whatever it is, i know.
Allah swt loves them more.
and for sure i shouldn't and have no right to be angry and all that for taking them away. so yeahhhh..
as what from what iqah blogged, "i'm fine. i guess we all are. Just need a lil bit more time. to be really fine."
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